Spiritual growth
Maybe I should stop walking around like a ghost, like a shell of a person. I need to walk in order to get places, like my front door after I get out of my car; and to different spots in my house. And I still wanna take up jogging, for my health. I’m a good walker, but I should progress to jogging. I have to lose my excess weight; and I need to get out of the house more and get more fresh air.
But I have to stop living like a dust bunny, or like dust particles in the sunlight. Here, but not here. Never fully here.
I’m currently on antipsychotics. And so it is what it is, with me. Schizophrenia. If a cure comes along, I’ll be first in line for it. But until that happens, I have to be on my meds.
Science is still figuring out whether there’s a definite linkage between schizophrenia and autism, I think. I think they’ve realized that there might be a linkage, but they’re still researching and studying.
I’m donating my brain to schizophrenia research, after I pass away. I’ll write it down in my will. There has to be a cure, we have to find a cure for this.
And I need to forgive myself for everything, and I need to forgive others for everything, too. I think forgiveness means letting go. It’s a type of overcoming, an overcoming of animosity and hurting. It’s like this; you’ve gotten over it; you grew; you matured and grew spiritually and intellectually. You’ve realized that love, forgiveness, inner strength, and god’s wisdom and compassion, is all that really matters. I am that I am, as god said in the bible. It’s all written, predetermined, maktoob. Love and light is at the end of the tunnel.
https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/trials/donate-your-brain-for-mental-health-research
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC1733720/
https://braintumor.org/news/brain-tissue-donation-explained-answers-to-frequently-asked-questions/
https://www.nia.nih.gov/health/brain-donation/brain-donation-gift-future-generations
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